Advice needed. Forgiveness. 

It comes and goes in waves. Reality that is. I’ve been harboring unresolved emotions for as long as I can remember. It’s like having the weight of someone of same size bearing down on my shoulders. Maybe even heavier. I’ve convinced myself that I have forgiven all for their errors and ways. But I haven’t forgotten. Does that mean I have not forgiven. Do I really have the ability to do so? I can go for long periods of time, happy. But all that it takes to disruption my state of calm is the turbulence caused by reality. Reality in the form of a few words, can send waves of emotion through my body rushing to me like high tide. I get swept away but in time I float back to shore. To dry and resume life in the cycle that has come to be. I return to my state of calm. Convinced that I have forgiven all for their errors and ways. 
How do you forgive? How do you express yourself? How do you do this when you can’t bear to hurt someone as much as they have hurt you? 

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