Advice needed. Forgiveness. 

It comes and goes in waves. Reality that is. I’ve been harboring unresolved emotions for as long as I can remember. It’s like having the weight of someone of same size bearing down on my shoulders. Maybe even heavier. I’ve convinced myself that I have forgiven all for their errors and ways. But I haven’t forgotten. Does that mean I have not forgiven. Do I really have the ability to do so? I can go for long periods of time, happy. But all that it takes to disruption my state of calm is the turbulence caused by reality. Reality in the form of a few words, can send waves of emotion through my body rushing to me like high tide. I get swept away but in time I float back to shore. To dry and resume life in the cycle that has come to be. I return to my state of calm. Convinced that I have forgiven all for their errors and ways. 
How do you forgive? How do you express yourself? How do you do this when you can’t bear to hurt someone as much as they have hurt you? 

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Making more time for sharing

I started this blog about 2 years ago with the main objective to share little bits of everything. However, I have let life get in the way. As we all do at times in our lives. It’s especially important that we do not let obligations and “things” get in the way of doing things we want to do. So with that being said, I plan to dedicate at least one hour a week to this blog. I am not completely sure what my goals are for this blog. But I do know that I started it for a reason.

Happy Cinco de Mayo! See you all next week.

Still Vegetarian Post 30 Day Vegetarian Challenge!!

It was mid January 2014 when a close friend of mine challenged a group of us to a vegetarian 30 day challenge (see older post). We were start on the day after Super Bowl. Of course, like any other person would do, I indulged in spicy chicken wings and pepperoni pizza during super bowl and lots of it. I had the idea that if I wasn’t going to eat meat for 30 days I might as well enjoy it, right! Well the challenge began the day after Super Bowl and I didn’t know what to eat! I went to the grocery store and purchased every frozen vegetable known to man. Needless to say, after a week I was having crazy cravings and was really tired. This was due to the fact that I just did not know how to cook well balanced vegetarian meals. My diet was lacking healthy fats and protein. So I started to incorporate beans and eggs into my meals more often and I started to feel better. But then I started having issues deciding what to eat at restaurants!!! I remember thinking to myself, “ALL I HAVE TO PICK FROM IS BROCCOLI AND SALAD!!!! AHHHHHH”, and I almost always chose French fries and some kind of cheesy pasta. I know I know…not healthy but if I couldn’t have a burger, cheesy pasta and fries had to do, right? WRONG!!! I eventually figured out that I was just going to the wrong restaurants. So after some trial and error, I found a few restaurants that met my needs. The 30 day Vegetarian Challenge was the first “challenge” I’ve ever completed. But after completing the challenge I found that not only did I test my discipline that I did something beneficial to my health. Now if I can reduce my intake of artificial sugars and cheese I’d be on the money.

A Few Assumptions I’ve heard as a result of telling people that I decided to go vegetarian:

Religious Reasons

I joined PETA ( not that it’s a bad organization I actually think it’s pretty awesome)

Trying to Lose Weight

No People I just did it because I was challenged and ultimately decided to stick with it.

What Resulted from this challenge:

I stuck with it. I celebrated my one year anniversary as a Vegetarian on February 2 2015

I actually gained weight due to not knowing how to prepare balanced meals and making a lot bad food choices (fries, and cheesy stuff….sigh). I highly recommend talking with your doctor and a registered Dietitian/Nutritionist if you are considering becoming vegetarian.

I actually started paying more attention to PETA and various other animal cruelty videos/documentaries and have become more conscious as a result. (Granted those documentaries usually document the worst of the worse. The practices highlighted in do not occur at all facilities)

Started to explore different fruits,vegetables, and sources of protein than I would’ve if I continued consuming meat.

Improved hair, skin, nails!!!

Increased motivation to cook. I was not much of a cook before becoming vegetarian. Now I have tons of recipe books and some cool kitchen gadgets!!!!

Improved Blood Pressure, Cholesterol, Triglycerides readings during my bio-metric screening.

Reduced “Lady” issues.

In Summary My 30 day Challenge turned out to be a lifestyle change.

NOTE: That the content of this post, only applies to my experiences in becoming vegetarian. If you have any questions I encourage you to contact your doctor or nutritionist.

January 2015 Movie Preview

Relatively Entertaining

E: I have to be honest: it will be a minor miracle if I see anything this month that actually officially opens in January.  It’s all Oscar for me, this month and next.  Why bother with this slate’s trifling offerings when there’s so much fantastic stuff out there that opened in December and November?

M: I’m unlikely to get to the theater in any given month, but yeah, with things I want to see (Selma, Theory of Everything) and things I feel like I should see (Hobbit, Mockingjay), this month’s openings might not make the list.

C: I mostly agree — heck, like M I’m still hoping to catch some stuff that came out in November, like The Theory of Everything — but it sounds like a few December movies aren’t as urgent as I thought they’d be. Based on the reviews, for instance, Unbroken could…

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K. Michelle- Anybody Wanna Buy A Heart

I want to start off by saying that this album definitely exceeds my expectations for an R&B album. Especially since we’ve heard our fair share of watered down R&B tunes lately. It’s refreshing to hear material from R&B artists other than Beyonce’. (No offense to Beyonce’.) Anyways, K.Michelle openly shares a different aspect of her love life with every track of her sophomore album “Anybody Wanna Buy a Heart”. She shows her fans that she is a human being and has feelings like the rest of us. A more vulnerable K.Michelle than what we are all used to from Love and Hip Hop Atlanta. A number of us have experienced similar issues in our love lives, be it falling in love with someone that doesn’t share those same feelings, to wanting to be with someone you can’t have, to wanting to inflict the same pain on another as they have done to you. The albums’ production, and content surpass it’s predecessor and K.Michelle’s vocals are amazing. This album speaks volumes and I encourage you all to give it a listen if you haven’t already. I guarantee that one or more of the tracks will resonate with you.

2015

One of my closest friends inspired me to create a vision board to bring in the new year. So I did :). 2014 was quite the experience and though I am blessed to have survived the year, there are a few aspects I’d rather not repeat. Financial instability, emotional imbalance, negativity, and the list goes on. My vision board is just a combination of all things I would like to work on in 2015. Most vision boards are collages with pictures and magazine clippings but I decided to use materials I already had in my home (cutting frivolous spending :)). My theme for 2015 is “HEALTH: Spiritual, Mental, Physical, Financial”. I won’t go into too much detail since the picture tells it all. But I will say that I plan to do better for myself this year. Wish me luck everyone. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Vision Board 2015

Winter in Cedar Rapids 2014

The idea of going out and taking pictures of the snow seemed like a good idea, before we actually did it. My Boyfriend and I decided to go out in the snow Saturday to take a few pictures of …well….Winter in Cedar Rapids. I must say that this is the coldest Winter I’ve experienced in my 25.5 years of life. With sub zero temperatures and steady snow throughout. But anywhoo…I will stop writing now, and just share the pictures with you guys.

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LOL I do not look happy in this picture.

Vegetarian for 30 Days

So…one of my sorority sisters started a 30 day vegetarian challenge February 1st. My first thought was, “wow that’s ambitious”. My second thought was, “Hmmmm. Maybe I can give it a shot”. My third thought was, “I’ve never finished any 30 day challenge I’ve started. EVER”. Squat challenge. Ab challenge. 52 week financial challenge. I’ve failed at all of them. What will make this one any different? It’s a mental thing. At least, that’s what I’ve heard countless times from countless people. Well I’ve decided to give this one a shot. Day 1 meat free. We shall see. Thinking positive thoughts.